I put a spell on you

Thou shall suffer.

Imagine

Imagine you were a dog
Imagine you were a dog
Imagine you were a dog
Imagine you were a dog

Imagine you were a cat
Imagine you were a cat
Imagine you were a cat
Imagine you were a cat

Imagine you were a bird
Imagine you were a bird
Imagine you were a bird
Imagine you were a bird

Imagine you were not yourself
Imagine you were not yourself
Imagine you were not yourself
Imagine you were not yourself

Did it work?

My right hand

Looks familiar?

Yeah Yeah Push it

thighs galore Click watch video

This is what you will see. 

The way to my place 

The dark lord summons you. 

The real Borat ??

Was Borat really in Kuwait? Does Fusla really know him? What is under the pool?

The Green Post

I promised when I changed my template color to green that I would select one of the suggested items and comment on it.

So far we have

1) Pizza by Jackie
2) Anything I want by Maryam
3) Waste of electricity by IE79
4) Life in the Netherlands by PSS

I assume most would think I should select number 4, but I think I will wait for more suggestions. So the deadline has been extended to Sunday.

September

August is almost over and September is on the way. September will be different this year for me. It will be the first time I go back to Kuwait since I came to work here. It will be the first time I take a real vacation and it will be the first time I will see people I have not seen for a while.

I do not know what to expect, but hopefully it will turn out to be fine.

I cannot say that I have enjoyed my last couple of months, as you have seen, I have been in a bad mood. Maybe this break will help.

Will much change? I do not know, and sometimes I do not even care, it is not worth giving any attention. But, since I am unfortunately human, I go through the normal phases any other human goes through, which is something I need to work on.

Maybe I will see some of you in Kuwait and no I will not be walking the streets in my mask.

"Mama put my guns in the ground
I can't shoot them anymore
That cold black cloud is comin' down
Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door."

Guess who is coming to dinner?

This is a question, or is it? If it is, you can answer it. If it is not, then what is the real question? If it is not a question, then is it an answer?

You make the call.

Blog back to normal

The blog is back to normal now, with a new template also.

The evil side has gone, for a while, might come back another time of course, for now its green.

So to celebrate this, I would like you to suggest what you would like me to write about. I will choose the best and compile a post next week.

tour de force

A tour de force is something one can be proud of, a notable achievement, something brilliant and amazing that no one else could have done.

Everyone strives for their own tour de force, their own claim to fame and being the top gorilla.

Have you achieved it yet? If yes, let me know.

Mine is still to come.

Loco

Animals have more rights than humans these days. They are better fed, kept in a nice environment, with good bosses or mistresses to fulfill all their needs.

I noticed on some blogs that there has been a society for human rights established. My question is, are we considered humans in the first place? We are seen as small particles of sand (or if I take the extreme), a group of cockroaches that have to follow the official doctrine. What is this doctrine? Well it is the law of the Jungle. This is the 21th century version of human rights. We are obliged to follow or be squashed and turned into stone (or dust). This doctrine is made by a small group of people (or an evil person living on a remote island, YES ITS YOU :P)

Maybe its better to be animals, then we have famous actors and actresses defending our rights, what can be better than that?

I always finish my posts with lyrics from a song, for those who have not figure it out yet. This time I choose this part from a well known song. I think it explains itself. Enjoy.

'cause you'll be going loco down in acapulco if you stay too
long.
You'll be pulling out your hair
drowning in despair
with a whole lot of nothing on your way to nowhere.
Your search for paradise will come to an end
when you realize what a fool you've been.

Smell my teen spirit

"I kill you - I'm not gonna crack."

"And I swear that I don't have a gun, No I don't have a gun."

"Death, Is what I am. Go to hell, Go to jail."

"Gun gun son of a gun."

Why?

Try to answer.

Kill Kill Kill - a poem

Kill Kill Kill
Kill Kill Kill
Kill Kill Kill

Kill them all
Kill them all
Kill them all

Kill Kill Kill
Kill Kill Kill
Kill Kill Kill

Bury them all
Bury them all
Bury them all

Kill Kill Kill
Kill Kill Kill
Kill Kill Kill


"The killer awoke before dawn
He put his boots on
He took a face from the ancient gallery
And he walked on down the hall."

Horoscopes

I am a Leo as you know, and according to the horoscope, it says I am compatible with Aries, Sagittarius, Gemini and Libra. Now these are people born in:

Aries: March 21 - April 20

Sagittarius: November 23 - December 22

Gemini: May 22 - June 21

Libra: September 24 - October 23

Kind of makes sense, except the Libra part, never knew anyone who was a Libra, so I cannot comment on that.

Do you believe in horoscopes? do you think the stars have a hand in our behavior and luck? are our destinies determined by movement of stars or can be predicated by their movement? My answer is sort of yes, as sometimes it does, but not always. It depends on how you interpret the movement.

"I want more, more.."

Burn Baby Burn

Burn Baby Burn,
the fire engulfs you, burn until you become dust then you become flesh again.

Burn Baby Burn, you will never come back, the wrath of the fire god will make set you alight.

Burn Baby Burn, burn in the deepest hole, burn and rot until you are no more, dead.

Burn Baby Burn, the gates of hell are open, are you prepared for the final judgment?

This is what awaits you baby, burn burn burn burn burn burn.

The Evil Template

As you can see the template is now dark. It will remain this way for a while. Enjoy.

War drums

tum tum tum tum, tum tum tum tum, tum tum tum tum, tum tum tum tum...

TUM............. TUM...................TUM.

I am your father Luke

Everyone has a dark side, a side that not many people see. Sometimes normal people can flip and turn into monsters, triggerd by a small thing. This is connected to our shadow.

The Shadow, is a psychological term introduced by Jung. It is everything in us that is unconscious, repressed, undeveloped and denied. Dark rejected aspects of our life. We all confront our shadows in our life, that is part of self-awareness.

The shadow shows itself in many instances. For example, you might say something stupid then apologize and say I did not mean it. However, the shadow decided that it was its turn to say something. It has it say whether we find it good or not. Does an I or E type have a different shadow? that is possible. But even the most E type people have a dark side of repressed feelings.

Most of us try repressing our shadow, because we are afraid of those thoughts and worried by what can happen. We do this to get accepted, we do this as we seek being part of family, friends, society, etc.

so what is the advice here? release your shadow? I do not know, my shadow is dormant most of the time. I know this though, sooner or later, the shadow must have its say.

"Everyone carries a shadow, and the less it is embodied in the individual’s conscious life,the blacker and denser it is. At all counts, it forms an unconscious snag,thwarting our most well-meant intentions. - Carl Jung."

The need for blog

Blogging is addictive, especially for females. Females get addicted to blogs easier than males due to the genome called "xx-blog". Only females have this strain and cannot resist the urge to blog. Men on the other hand, have the "xy-blog" genome, which is 1/2 blog resistive due to the presence of the y protection part.

Now, how can we define a male that blogs daily? would he also have the "xx-blog" genome? no. The male has another form, a rare form, yet as addictive, that is the "x-blog-x" genome. This is a bi-polar genome that makes the male more addictive to blogging than he usually should be by nature.

Males who have this genome cannot be cured, unless lured by a female that has the "x-blog-x" genome. This genome in the female is dormant and has no function, unless in close proximity to a male with the same genome strain. Females can also be lured from their addiction by a male carrying the same genome.

However, not all females blog, despite the presence of the "xx-blog" genome in all females, why is that? Because the "xx-blog" genome takes time to develop, and some females start developing other genomes first such as "shopping" and "dala3" genomes.

For males, the "x-blog-x" genome develops with time, but can be affected in development by the "xy-blog" genome. Males do not have other dangerous genomes of course, despite females thinking that :P

So, if you are male and a blogger, do not be ashamed. If you are female and blog, then beskom :P

Wolf

"I wolf the peace inside of you
The nasty way the demons do I exhale my wickedness in you
So when you open up your eyes I'm there to flatter with demise
There's nothing you can do
I am the children of the night
The storm in you that kills the light
Here I come
Charging out through your skull
My reflection in your eyes
You hear me laugh when you die
Evil deeds You satisfy my vicious needs
A wave of terror in your mind
Eats you alive
They laugh at you I swear it's true With blade in hand what will you do?
Kill yourself a fool
Suddenly they're right behind I've got revenge on your mind
You know what to do
Come try and catch me if you can I am the
Devil in a man
Here I come
Charging out through your skull
My reflection in your eyes
You hear me laugh when you die
Evil deeds You satisfy my vicious needs
A wave of terror in your mind
Eats you alive
I am the evening and the dawn
The father to the morning star I teach the art of war
Sweet hate is pumping through your veins
The flame of fury burns inside
Exciter
I am the children of the night
The storm in you that kills the light
Here I come
Charging out through your skull
My reflection in your eyes
You hear me laugh when you die
Evil deeds
You satisfy my vicious needs
A wave of terror in your mind
Eats you alive."

so Zaydoun, would this band be on your play list? give it a shot.

Oh that reminds me, if you people have not seen Heavy Metal (1981) movie, its worth it, classic in all means.

If you do not know who Wolf is, check Wolf

I was watching the opening of the olympics and I thought it would be nice to have my own flag also, So, this will be the flag of the land of Purgatory 

Cologne me bad

I got this cologne as a birthday gift. Usually, I just smell it and throw away the box, but this one had a small booklet inside. The Arabic text was funny, that I wanted to share it with you.

"rajol yamshee fee elshaware3, rasheeq kalsanoori (English translation: feline, I think the guy who wrote this was 3omani), aneeq, 3a6efi, wa Mowala3 (not emwale3 as on fire) fee nafs elwaqt. 6oo3ee (English translation: determined) taltafet alnes'a 3end moreereh, yatreok waraho athara'n ghamethan wa modheshan."

now the English translation:

"A man walks through the streets slightly feline, elegant, at once passionate and sentimental, determined. Women turn round as he passes by leaving behind him an intriguing scent of mystery."

Is it only me, or does the Arabic text sound like it is talking about something totally different?

Nevertheless, I think maybe using this cologne might solve my seduction problem :)

The mask

You might be wondering why I wear this mask in the picture. It is not a mask, but rather a helmet, an actual fire helmet. I liked how it looked, so I put it on and took a picture.

You might also be wondering who is behind it? How does he look like? Well, you can post your guess, and the one with the closest guess will get a normal picture sent to his or her e-mail.

I doubt if anyone can guess right (except a couple who know me, but I do not think they would comment on this post).

War saga, part II - the chronicles of purgatory (The Hammer) 72

This is a continuation of my war post on July 17, as promised I mentioned that I would update on that.

The war scenario is developing as expected, the leaves are shaking, but the tree is still not moving. The digging has slowly started, and with each dig, another branch falls, and the tree is further exposed. The pace is steady, sometimes small rascals come in between, but they are chased away. I have developed a talent for that now.

The goal is still the same, to conquer all demons, to be victorious. I smell fear in the air, there will be mistrust, there will be alliances, there will be treason, and there will be a major shift.

The clock is ticking, and it will tick tick and tick until it stops one day, and there I will be, one, satisfied, victorious, covered with the guts and the tails of the demons, and people will always remember that day, as the day the big bad wolves turned into hamsters, squealing like pigs.

"2 legit to quit."

Dreams

Short second post, to compensate for yesterday:

Dreams, are they visions from the future, reflections from our past, nonsense?

Share your thoughts.

And for those who say dreams are black and white, I can assure them its in color too, because I pay attention to that in my dreams.

The dating coach

Yesterday I was watching a program on MTV where people who cannot find dates, people who do not know how to get good relationships use a dating coach to help them. One guy did not understand that making burp sounds, playing with food is not a way to behave around women, he always wanted to be the clown, and he was not good looking either.

It amazes me that a job as dating coach exists. Maybe people need help on how to approach the other sex, or have some help in relationships, but to actually have a profession as a dating coach, now thats just absurd.

Why do people always want to be in a relationship or be with someone from the other gender or same gender? Life does not revolve around relationships and dating, and some people have better skills or natural talents for that compared to others, we do not all have to get the perfect match.

Birthday

Today is the day, I am 32 now. At work we usually get cake for the people when it is someone's birthday, so I got them some, with two other guys, whose birthday was on the same day. I also got kissed by the ladies, three times on the cheeks, that is a Dutch tradition. Luckily I have cheeks :)

So far its not been any different than yesterday much, usually a day or two after my birthday is when I feel different a bit, we shall see what happens this year.

Its 33 degrees outside, hot hot hot!! According to one of my friends Europe does not have a good layer of Ozone, so that is why its hot. That might be true, I have been drinking lots of fluids today. Most people are half naked outside anyways.

It was nice for CiCi and GiGi to include a special post for me on their web site, very sweet ladies, thank you very much. Thanks for all the other people who wished me a happy birthday and of course, Jackie for her offer to seduce me (then again since I do not read signals right, she could be kidding).

Seduce the Leo

I am not good at seduction, never have been. I have always been told I miss signals from the opposite sex. Maybe its genetic, maybe its just a button that is switched off on purpose.

I think I do it on purpose, not to seduce that is. Maybe because I do not want to be the same as one expects, or give them the satisfaction of getting what they want.

Some like to be seduced, either by words or actions, and consider that as an integral part of any relationship. I do not believe that is the case. I like to do things because I feel like it, not because I have to do it.

With age I have gotten more rigid, more stiff I think. I am not that much interested in changing, am happy the way I am. I do not think it is healthy though, I should be open to new things and new life changing experiences, what they call living your life. The problem is, I do not see a reason why I should do that.

Reason, that is always my justification for how I act or behave. I analyze too much, thinking of every little thing to the detail, which when applied to life is not the best approach. So if I know all this, why have I not done anything about it? I do not have an answer.

Guess I am who I am and will not change, stubbornness comes with being a Leo.

Death time calculation

I know this is a wacky site, but why not

Death clock

Sushi Craving

After talking about sushi, I went and got me some. Its from the place I talked about before Sapporo

 

Sushi

"Raw fish, I like cooked food." "It smells, it stinks." " I might get sick."

Those are excuses of people when I ask them if they would like to have sushi.

I first had sushi 8 years ago when I was visiting my brother in Miami, or was it Kuwait, hmm I think Kuwait. Anyways, we went with his artistic cinematic guru friend to the Hilton and they started eating sushi. I did not know how it tastes, but I am always open for new things. So I got started on the simple stuff, FutoMaki, Cal. Roll, the stuff for beginners. I liked it, so I also tried a couple others.

With time, I began to like sushi, and being in Florida with good fish, I had the chance to get good quality sushi for reasonable prices. I used to go either alone to a small sushi bar at the beach, or with my friend to a place she discovered, also somewhere along the beach. She used to have the "boat", full of fish and I of course got filled up on sushi or all kinds.

Since I came to work here, I have had sushi a few times. The most difficult part is to find a good place that sells good quality. After all, The Netherlands is not known for its good fish, nor for good sushi places. However, it has slowly changed. I found a nice place close to my house, about 10 mins away outside the city, its half Chinese, half Japanese. Its a big Villa, so it can fit 5 restaurants in one place if needed or more. I go there a couple of times a year to enjoy my raw fish delicacy.

Another difficulty is to find someone that likes sushi.

I understand now that in Kuwait there are plenty of Japanese places, Kei, Wasabi, kamikaze, 7ameedo shamel, you name it. I find it odd that so many places have opened for such a delicacy in Kuwait. I mean how many people want to eat sushi? and wouldn't the restaurants already existing before that be enough to satisfy them all? I do not remember ever going to a Japanese in Kuwait and it being full.

Next time I am in Kuwait I will pass by one of them and see what the buzz is about sushi.

32

I will be 32 on Monday. I do not know how that will feel. I know being 30 or 31 did not feel any different. I have been mostly the same as I was since I was 27 besides a few white hairs.

I do not like aging, I do not see a reason why I should get older. It does not get any better with age, it gets worst. Your body breaks down, your mental state gets more fragile and in my case, life moves at a faster pace than I would like.

This might explain my fascination with time travel and multiple dimensions/worlds. Maybe my endeavors to find the way to the other side are based on my dissatisfaction of the way things are. I am sure I am not the only one who is not satisfied, everyone at different levels of course.

Will it ever get better? no. Will it ever get worse? possible. Will it ever be the same? I do not know.

Monday will come and go, and I will feel the same in 365 days.

I am on Google!

purgatory 72 blog, gives you nine hits. Some from my blog and some my comments on others.

Interesting that the first three hits are:

1) my profile
2) my post on my war
3) my post on women loving women.

Tells you a bit how Google is organised.

Ask Purg

This entry is for the people who would like to ask me questions. So if you have any questions about me, my blog or anything else, ask.

Stairway to Heaven

What is a question? One of the definitions of a question is an uncertainty about the truth or factuality of existence of something. An answer should provide clues or ideas on explaining the uncertainty. Is that always the case? of course not.

I like to ask questions, my mind is always full of them. I do not always find my answers, but I keep asking more questions. I analyze and analyze and analyze. Sometimes I get confused and then decide to take a break and pick a non-complete answer.

But back to my general statement,what is the purpose of all this confusion? Why would someone not want to answer a question? many reasons, insecurity, deliberate confusion, fear are just examples. In today's multimediatic (I made up this word, sounds nice)age the truth or the answer can be found easily. No longer can people hide behind false statements or try to mislead the masses. I said they cannot, but that does not mean they cannot get away with it.

You know why they can do that? Because we (ok I am one of the "we") are humans. Humans with emotions that affect our logic, humans affected by our environment, our childhood (I was neat in the bathroom for all of you Freud fans)and our time. One major item that plays a key role in shaping us, and shaping our ideals and beliefs is of course...... TIME.

Its the 21th century now, in 4000 years, do you think it would be different? do you think in 4000 years we would be better than we are today? I think not. History teaches us that we humans have never evolved beyond our lizard brains to get anywhere. We still make the same mistakes, we never learn.

However, all of this is going on in one world out of many, one universe out of many. If you believe in things existing in balance and that there is always an extreme to everything, there must be a parallel world that is totally worst than ours and there is one world that is totally better than ours. The question is, on which side of the scale is our world?

Remember Utopia? People always use that term to refer to the ideal and perfect place, where law is respected and people live in harmony. But for those who know Greek well, that definition is wrong. Utopia is composed of two Greek roots (I bet you English Lit. females like this bit the most *grin*):

1. the root "ou" means nowhere
2. the root "topos" means place.

So in Greek its outopos or nowhere place. The prefix "u" is similar to "eu" in English pronunciation. "eu" means good. So the correct translation indicates that Utopia does not exist. But, that does not stop us from trying to implement laws and regulations to get our society to that ideal situation.

Now back to my extremity scale, if Utopia did actually exists as a perfect parallel world to ours, would it be what we refer to as heaven? Is heaven then a parallel world? If it is a world, then it must have boundaries according to our understanding and definition of a world. There must be a way that we can get to it besides what we are told. We must have a way to get there regardless if we are good or bad.

Heaven can be reached, Hell can be reached. These are parallel worlds, so my last question is, Where is the stairway to heaven?

"Yes there are two paths you can go by
but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on."

Welcome to Woop Woop

Not many have seen this movie, its Australian, made in 1997, actors not known. It is typically Australian though, with focus on the landscape. I was watching it last Saturday night around 1.30 am.

Would I recommend that you watch? no, you will not like it, you will think its too simple. However, for those who like to be exposed to the "other" cinema, it is worth a screening, just for fun.

Blog without a reason

Its August, the time when most go on vacations. I do not like to take a vacation in August, as its quiet time for me. Time for me to catch up on some reporting and do some of the "small" things I never had time for in the normal busy months.

However, I am writing a blog instead, which means I do not have much to do, or more likely, do not feel like doing much at this moment. I think I have the blog bug, similar to the irc bug I had 10 years ago, but that passed away, so I wonder how soon my blog bug will go away.

I have noticed more blog sites by Kuwaities, mostly English Lit. majors for some reason. Some talk about their own feelings, some discuss current matters, and some well :) interesting to look at. I try to pass by all the blogs on a regular basis to see my comments and replies, wish there was an easier way to get a notification on my comments on other peoples sites.

Correction to something I found on the Cici and Gigi site, I am not an expat, I am a Kuwaiti but I work abroad in a Kuwaiti Company (just in case someone asks for the 100000 time "why do you work outside Kuwait"?). I still did not get a clear answer from them on who is who and why the same site, I mean, why share a site?

Speaking of blogs, I tried to post some pictures online, but that Hello program is a mess, hence, I decided not to. Then again, pictures makes people not read what I say good, so maybe its for the best.

Anyways, I think I should make myself useful and do some work for a change.

New template

I have decided to change my look and get something that fits me better. This is my favorite color and it is also similar to the color of my living room "Greek Blue".

Pour some classic rock on me

Pink Floyd, The Doors, Foreigner, Boston, Santana, Journey, Moody Blues, The Doobie Brothers, Jimmy Hendrix, Styx, The alimony Brothers, and many many more. Those are pioneers, true artists that have shaped music in many forms and ways. Rock is the essence of all music. All is born from rock. Nothing beats the sound of a guitar and drums in background. When you listen to a classic rock song, you get the vibe and emotions of the time or the moment.

Luckily rock music never dies, thanks to people such as Linkin Park, The Darkness, Live, Soundgarden, and Guns N'Roses. You can only appreciate music if you understand rock music.

So if you have not listened to songs such as comfortably Numb, Cold as ice or Faithfully, take that LP out of your closet or download that track and listen to it. Best time to listen to rock is late at night. If you considered rock to be a waste of time, I urge you to give it a try, it is worth it.

Let me know what your favorite classic rock band or track is. I do not like lists of course as mentioned in an earlier blog, so I will not make a list of my favorites.

"Hysteria when you’re near."